New Years Resolutions – Week 21 Update

What a week. Nothing big happened, but a four day weekend with not a lot happening, except hanging out with family, meant I spent the week eating and not working out. Something that is becoming a trend. I have to help myself figure out how to not be detrimental to myself by gaining the weight back over the weekend what I have lost during the week. It is becoming a ridiculous cycle that is not only getting boring (because I am getting tired of eating the same snacks and seeing the same results) but not helping me mentally. Here is my New Years Resolutions – Week 21 Update.

Now, last year April and May was about the time that I fell off the Resolutions-wagon and gained all the weight back from my clean eating Lent diet. And kept on eating. And gaining. It is at the point of being embarrassing that I report, what feels like, my failures to you. Especially when there is no one to blame but me, myself, and I. Nothing to do but accept (with bad grace) that I am having super control issues and try to get help. Help how? By trying to find things, or do things, that will keep me busy and not eat. And also recognize when my worst eating times are. The last one is easy – nights and weekends. It is like once I leave work my brain goes into vacation-mode, even if it is only for the afternoon until I have to go back to work, and I eat. Eat like there is no tomorrow, eat. The finding things to distract myself is hard. I think the main thing I am going to try this week is doing my at-home walking tape at night after work, when all I want to do is sit and veg. If I do this then I can let myself sleep in in the mornings instead of getting myself up at 5am then half-assing it through a workout. I will let you know how that goes. Other things to keep busy? Well, if I go back to school it will be homework; or finding games I can do instead of being on the computer doing nothing. Any suggestions?

I did it. I applied for college this week, and am in the process of getting my transcripts from my community college. I also applied for FAFSA which makes me nervous having an outrageous debt. Ugh, makes me quiver in fear. I haven’t had a debt in over eight years! No credit cards for me, so having something glaring at me like that – yuck! But I also had another interview this week, in San Antonio this time, but if I am really contemplating going back to school full time and working part time, then interviewing for full-time jobs is dumb right? This whole thing is confusing, and dang scary. This is such a huge decision and I don’t want to make the wrong choice! What if I suck at school like I did in high school? That is what is going through my mind – how horribly I did, and didn’t care that I did horribly. It is spinning through my brain and is feeding my fear. Have to get past it, darn it!

So now for the real update:
Weight & Inches
Total from Last Week: +4.6lbs, +2in
Total from the 1st: -.8lbs, -6.5in
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